the moment of interpretation

 

I talked about how forgetful people could be in my last article

when I said that I was not just excluding myself

being forgetful could be rewarded with new experience

like reading a book or watching a film and then completely forget what it is about

so the joy will repeat next time when you read it or watch it

I started thinking when do we learn forgetting?

forgetting is an active decision

once one experiences pain or something dreadful

one gets shocked

and then an automatically generated safety mechanism

called forgetting is settled first

to gain time for recovery

completely forgetting as medical disease is another issue

normally we think we drop memories

but it is only dimmed

and waiting for a good time to show up again

there is a chosen time to be remembered forward

if we do not use the time as an unit 

then forgetting and remembering will not exist

forgetting and letting go are two different things

I guess

due to my personal experience today

once you remember what is forgotten before

you can let go

and that moment is very wonderful

I was teaching on an online lesson this afternoon

meeting a pupil who had a longer interval in-between

(ok maybe just two weeks?!)

That I suddenly realized 

I am or have been so narrow-minded

it was a short moment of realization

like glance of seeing myself in a mirror that was not there before

and it was strong so this realization hit me almost like a particular smell

then I continued the lesson with this incredible feeling of 

seeing me caught in a frame I built

there was not forgetting, no remembering, no letting go

they were a whole thing

forgetting, remembering and the ultimate idea of letting go

are interpretations that just arrive the party late.